It’s Christmas. I’m happy because I made an otherwise uncertain Holiday into something memorable. It’s been a long time since I had a home to entertain people and I’m long overdue taking the lead and sharing the burden of planning and hosting family. Therefore, I did something I’ve never done before and rented a house to put us all together for 2 days. I can’t believe I pulled this off with 2 days’ notice. I have to thank my sister, brother-in-law, and my amazing niece and nephews for joining me. It was a rare two days where for a moment, it felt like I had a real home.
The Holidays have always been a troubling time trying to spend it with family or share it with a boyfriend. It’s the one time of year when I don’t like celebrating alone. I’ve done it and I can do it, but I’m alone a lot with my travels that having people to spend the day with means something for me. It’s also a tricky time to do that because everyone is trying to spend it with their families and except for my sister and her family, I’d otherwise feel a misfit crashing if I lone-wolfed it anywhere else.
In the past, I had preferred to do things with my boyfriend and his family or with my sister and her family, since going ” back home” has always been a bit complicated. Even in Seattle, I haven’t seen my sister in half a year or so and my nephews hit and miss (two of them drove one way with me across the country this year). While I love my sister, there’s a different kind of energy that comes from spending time with her kids–even now that they are grown up. They are great kids and still kids at heart. They are excited to see each other, excited to see me, excited to be together and it’s rejuvenating and refreshing to be a part of that energy.
The last few years, my sister has been challenged with her health, her job, her marriage, etc. Yet, she does her best to keep the family together and celebrate the Holidays under one roof. This year, no one was making plans and the kids are at an age where they aren’t all in one city or State anymore. She had 3 of her 4 kids here and I could tell she was struggling to plan what to do. Since I don’t have a steady boyfriend right now, it’s hard to expect that we would do something so I looked at my options and thought it was time for me to step up.
I hadn’t planned to spend Christmas with my sister, but I wanted to feel a part of something bigger than myself, and I wanted them to feel like they were still a family and had a stronghold around them. Bringing everyone together was a way to do just that, even if it’s only going to physically last for these 2 days.
Not only did I bring my sister’s family together, we also brought Christmas to two other boys who wouldn’t have had one without them. This rental created a space where I could feel at home and provide a home. It was a little magical.
Everyone had a good time and within a few hours of arriving we had moved in, had a tree with presents under it, and time to relax and catch up. Sadly, while my heart was full from spending some much needed time with my family, my heart was breaking because I knew the snow was going to ruin any chance of spending time with my friend, whom I’d come all this way to see. Spending time together is the best gift to give and receive and so hard to come by as everyone gets “busy”. I appreciate the time I’ve gotten from people and I appreciate you, the readers, for spending part of your time with me this month and at Christmas, through my blog posts.
Merry Christmas everyone!
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